I wanted to delete my blog a few days after i shift, but i decided to continue blogging after i read JY's blog.

I will never ever forget my sec 1 life. I met you, and LJ & ST. I would tell you all my secrets, and go psycho with you talking about our crushes. The most prominent part of my memory was when we wait for 28 bus. You will take the opposite side. We will sms, communicate with hand signs. We exchange letters. You are the first to know when i got my new number, my new phone. You will call me every night and we will talk. We will study together, sometimes inviting other friends. We will go your house and do project. You were very violent [haha!] but i still treat you as my best friend. Yes, the promise. I dunno.

Next year, i went to the same class as my crush. I was so happy. You went to a different class. Nothing had changed, you know? You still called me, but less. I know who you called. But its ok. I know you were close with kuku, i know. But you told me she was your best friend in your class, and yes, i believed you. But soon, i found that we started drifting apart. I was sad. That's when i started getting closer to meiyen. I tried to salvage, i tried to hold on, but i failed. I stopped trying. I know i owe you alot, alot. I felt very very guilty. I tried again, but again, i failed. I was left out, was everything. I didnt want this to happen, so i stopped trying again. I know you will be alot happier with them.

Next year, i tried again. I tried twice, but i don't feel i fit in anymore. But i feel like i was still your good friend. But not that close anymore.

And then came the 'D' thing. I was sad, you didn't tell me. I was sad you weren't the one who told me. But i guess it was ok. I thought you don't treat me the same anymore, so its ok. I am sorry what i write later will offend some others, but i will still write it. Even if i am still hanging with you alot, even if things is still the same and we are best friends again, even if others will hate me because of you, i will still hang out with you. I will not dump you. I will still be there when you need me. I don't care if the people i used to respect now hates me. You will always be the priority. But now, i don't think i will need to demonstrate this.

Its ok we can't be best friends again. But you know if you have any problems, i will be there to share, i will be there to give you advice, i will be there, with a shoulder for you to cry on.

The following will be offensive, sorry!

If your friends think that their 'reputation' will be smeared because of the 'D' thing, and don't want to hang out with you anymore, then don't try to get them back. It only proves that they are not worthy. Just find a day to talk with kuku, etc, and see how things go from there ok?

Don't worry darling, even if the whole world don't want you, i will still make you my best friend, ok? Your post really really really touched me. I love you, and cheer up. Things might go out just fine. :)